joycie and shan were the ones who suggested for this study session on a saturday, and they were the ones who dua me. in the end, there were only like 4 of us: andri, jamez, han and me. n i happily left them for janice's birthday party at 6+pm. hahaha andri was saying the reason i kept ringing her, asking her when will she be joining us was tt i was very insecure with only han around. whahaha ridiculous can? i was only wondering will there be another pang seh-er, nv even thought so far lor. haha i wouldnt dare as adeline will chop me into pieces.. OOPSSSSSSSSSSS. LOL!

took train all the way to tampines and while i was queueing to board bus 29 at the berth in interchange, i heard someone called out my name so softly. i turned to the bunch of people but saw no familiar faces. A while later, i saw weichuan aka andy lau boarding the bus. as some of u may noe, i'm rather pat jiao so 99% of the chance will be tt i see nobody i know at tt point of time. wah lao i am really blind. i think he was standing somewhere behind but my eyes could only focus on one thing at a time and i felt so lazy to sweep my vision across each and every one of the faces, so it conveniently swept past all with a blur.

andy lau was late as he had banged onto a pole while chasing for bus 969 to tampines, n he missed the bus after it decided not to wait for this madman. whahaha nearly fainted when he described it to me. jokers man my ex-class! whahaha buay tahan. furthermore, andylau said tt i was so shy when i turned to look at him at the interchange. SLAP HIS ASS CAN? i din even see him lor. ahaha tt was a bo chup look, not shy.

Janice was so so so pretty at her birthday party!! i always tink tt she look a lil like evonne xu. haha and she looked so happy with her bf at her side! liping, xueli, liting n i took pictures and had our dinner. guangzu, mingxian, kiamho, louis were also present as well. and here are some of the pics i've shown them:

cute right?

wah CUTE rite?

WAH cannot tahan liao right? LOLz!!!

Haha was quite happy to catch up with the guys also, as mingxian used to be on very gd terms with me, and guangzu aka chubby, my 13-years fren cum 9-years classmate cum 13-years neighbour was present to talk cock and suan me. my sec 2 class was so damn united too, especially the guys. up till now, they still organise soccer sessions almost every week, and would meet up at one's place to watch soccer matches. the girls.. hmm.. quite splited here and there. haha ting ting n me still on super good terms since sec 1! n i am super glad things turned out tis way! haha

so here i am.. digressing abit n to re-emphazing to dbf 07 now.. PLEASE KEEP IN CONTACT LIKE THEY DO OK?

ting n ping went home early, and lili went for another fren's birthday party. so i stayed on with the guys. din reli talk to wq n gang though i am on alright terms with them, except her. not tt i hv anything agst her or something, but sometimes the way she talk is full of sarcasm n i reli dunno how to continue a proper conversation with her. left for changi village with the guys, and makan again. and den.. we chatted about the past....

whahaha ming xian had mentioned during the party tt i injured him once with a flying correction fluid. wah lao sorry la. tt was purely an accident, as the cap was loose but i threw it to him before realizing it and by the time i managed to utter a warning, it had already hit his gums. his sleeve was full of blood after he tried stopping the blood tt gushed outta his mouth. i am so so so super duper sorry abt tt. i think we were running ard in class before this accident happened, as he had hidden my bag and i din noe where to find it though it was i was so sure tt he was the mastermind. abit childish right? whahaaha but tt means i got childhood ok? the funny thing was, everyone associated us as a couple, as we were on quite gd terms. wad the hell. sorry but we were purely frenz then. from sec 2 till 4, my classmates and even my teacher started rumouring abt us. -_-'" he "belonged" to my gd fren, not me. haha he bears a similar resemblance to mingjie, my super duper bestest fren in pri sch. and mingxian knows mingjie as well. tt explains our affinity, definitely not as wad they've said.

and then when i started raising my voice n started rambling in wad i would call a man-ly manner, andy lau commented "THIS IS THE SARAH WE KNOW!!!". haha guess they must have been isolated from me so long tt dey are more used to the louder me. i think the more i hang out with then the higher the chance i'm gonna be reborn.

guangzu then accompanied me home, and told me tt i'm a changed person. hehe hear tt? someone told me tt willingly hor. said tt i wasnt tt ah lian anymore (in my opinion, i never was!!), not as playful n treasures my studies now. whahaha i feel tt i've realized my mistake too late; i wish i had changed liddat since pri sch. i always think tt i may be able to attend a better sec sch if i had studied, as i did not study a bit nor do any assessment for PSLE or throughout the years. i could improve on my studies given the chances, with great teachers and even higher chinese whereby i had an edge to many others, as i had a chance to take higher chi in sec sch too.

i really regretted that. i always feel that if i were to attend a better sch, i may hv persevered and got in a better JC, and perhaps i would be in a uni right now. maybe things would turn out like the way i had mentioned if i reli studied, if i reli put in effort, if i reli had worked hard. so many MAYBEs, and so many IFs. if i can reli predict, i can be god already. but if i din land up in AISS, i wouldn't hv known so many great frenz, like the guys, peiqi, tingting, pingping, grace, xueli, janice, elaine, etc. maybe if i reli entered anderson or amkss, i become more slack or ah lian sia? maybe i'm supposed to learn the hard way. life is unpredictable. now i know, it's not a matter of where we study, most of our success is based on the amount of work and effort put in too. so.. i shan't complain abt tt anymore. i shld just accept fate tt had already became a part of my history, and try to change my fate for the better by reli becoming someone of worth. i dun wanna be someone who is useless, a junk to the family or society. ok i'm not so patriotic as to wanna contribute my whole life to the country till the day i die, but i wish to excel in my work if i can find my dream job.

i feel sad. =(