[::..help help helppppppp~ ..::]
shld i.. shld i not..
paris is so artsy, but im not an artsy kinda person. going there to eat bread everyday doesnt reli sound great, watching pple pose for naked artpieces dun reli appeal to me too. and cheese definitely ain't my cup of tea!! however, the idea of going overseas for studies sounds cool huh. you get to live a totally different kinda life there! but beyond the fun and experience we may get to enjoy from the trip abroad come expenses, independence and language barrier.
just imagine. having to speak french practically to everyone you see and in everything you do, it's like a hell lot tougher than trying to shit while you're having constipation (yea im constipated now! after days of LS-ing). moreover, having to live alone overseas is no easy deal. but i feel tt this is reli a test for my own self-being, to bring my independence to a greater level and to be flexible to changes so as to be able to adapt to changing working environment in future.
i wouldnt wanna burdenize my parents further with my expenses, but i reli feel tt this could be the turning point of my life. the high standard of living in paris reli can kill. i'm so fan nao~
liping and line were questioning me on my means of financing the course.. and whether it would be beyond my parents' limits to send me abroad. liting was also saying tt she too, had been so enthu about joining the local UOL programme with her jc classmate, but backed out of the course a few months after joining. reason being: her fren quit and she felt discouraged to continue any longer. ting was saying that it could be the heat of the moment, things could just happen in the way tt happened to her: tt i just happen to hear of this programme from my lecturer, tt i just happen to graduate at this point in time and desperately needed a way out, tt my fren feel like going so i probably got psychoed to go.
wad she said makes sense too. but i reli yearn for the experience and the chance to explore the world.
kwokyann also questioned me on how much am i willing to go over, on joycie's account. i din answer him, as i'm not too sure too. he was wondering.... wad if joyce gives up halfway? will i stay? or will i leave with her, back to SG? ky also mentioned tt i'm more of a working kinda person than a studying one, one who will pia so hard in work and do last min studying (just like wad peiqi and liping said). haha they know me well man.
i am reli helpless! HELP!!!!
but i sounded the lady at the helpdesk for relevant information, and i shall just hope that she'll bring me good news on the nice modules they offer for the course and all!
meanwhile.. i have to test water abit and ask my dad for his opinion tml.. wish me luck!
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
[::..3 days of partying~ woooah~ ..::]
Graduation night for our dinner and dance. almost all of my classmates turned up, except leng and cherry. dinner was alright only, but it was the process tt counts. the photo-taking sessions with my BD groupmates, BD classmates, coursemates, Bangkok-trip-mates, lecturers, and not forgetting, 06-ers and my classmates!
we loitered and stayed till 12+am before we decided on the next destination: Rouge. haha we ordered 2 bottles of johnnie walker and most of them got a lil drunk. the funniest thing being, ASHTON actually fell when he tried kicking ys's shoe. whahaha the process of him flipping over n flopping on the floor resembles a fishy on a pan, totally. lolz. sorry dude. hehe
after our drinking session, came the interrogation session. this time round, ah boo and i were put under pressure to answer questions such as "who do u like in the course of studies in SP?" and "why don't you get a bf?". hahaha can siam den siam liao! hahaha luckily the focus wasn't on me tt much.. orh mi tor fo dun ask me again can?
we chatted till 7+ or 8 in the morning and i reached home at 8+. wah really so tiring! but i have another party to attend to later in the day............
oooh i actually wanted to meet ash and ys to check in pan pac first, but as u all know, i was late again so i decided to meet my colleague instead. BUT i was late again and couldn't meet her until my restaurant opened for business and i went in to talk to my waitresses, cashiers and chefs. i miss that place man! meeiling, shan and i took pics in the tatami room, and even with tomomi. whahha
buffet at triple 3. i was fascinated by their sashimi and sushi, so i grabbed like siao. chikuyotei's taste better! haha i miss the food in chikuyotei.. oh gosh.. their sashimi are reli damn fresh and sweet. just imagine, sweet raw food. goodness, can melt in my mouth can!!!
oh and chocolates~ there's this chocolate fondue machine churning a pool of milk chocolate. oh man, i practically filled my whole plate with it. lolz. what a sin to eat such food, but i don't reli care then la. no need so shu nu in front of them one. hahaha
ooooh~ we reached pan pac after makan-ing, and we opened my bottle of martell n ric's white wine for celebration. ric's wine tasted great man, i tink got a history of 10 years already. i shld keep some today and open them 10 years later too. we watched american pie and makan in macs, AGAIN. after which ash was forced onto our bed and got raped by shan and I. hahaha. 3 rooms for 6 pple, shiok ah!
we got ready by 1+pm and off we go to makan at MS before going over to ric's place for mahjong session. shan, ash and ric, being the diao guis of the class, enticed me into a serious game of mahjong. i think i'm getting addicted soon. lol. and ash lost my bottle of liquor!!! haha but it's okie coz nobody reli drank it except me. you shi bi you de. i'm waiting for good things to happen to me now!
jamez took over me while i met up with leng for the trumpet concert by shunzo ohno. oooh it's nice and cool. musical instruments such as drums, piano, string bass and trumpet alone could churn our super nice music. i wanna learn too!! i told leng tt she tried getting me involved in soka back in year 1, and she replied tt she must finish what she had set out to do. whahaha. and i saw tomomi there, as an usherer, so qiao!!!
actually, i wouldn't mind getting a religion. i have been considering it for months already but no action really taken yet. i shall start with it slowly.. hehe..
after the concert, we hurried to ew's celebration at the kbox in paradiz centre. wah the room cost 1.8K. faint. but it was reli enjoyable! i sang like nobody's business nearing the end of the day (4am). and drank alot again. wah the vodka was nice and strong that i got a lil high when i was halfway through the song High high high. whahah suddenly cannot remember wad i was doing. i think i am god tt i can actually complete tt song w/o me knowing i was singing. whahaha but luckily i regained conscious as quickly as i lost it, only for a few mins. HENG!
tired liao la.. continue next time..
[::..tagging game ..::]
oh man.. i must be reli bored to do this.. but here goes nutting~
1.the tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of their perfect lover
2.need to mention the sex of the target.
3.Tag 8 victims to join this game & leave a comment on their comments saying they have been tagged.
Here you go..
1.1 Faithful is the key. i simply couldn't accept double-crossers or fickle people.
1.2 Maturity is a factor. i wouldn't want people like my sis to quarrel with me over trivial and bo liao matters.. i will vomit blood.
1.3 Someone who is funny. i wouldn't mind someone brighting up my days.
1.4 Someone who believes in giving-and-taking.
1.5 Someone who cares for me and loves me (obviously).
1.6 Encouraging and supports me (rationally, of coz).
1.7 Someone who accepts me for who i am.
1.8 Must be nice to me. hmm.. nice is kinda up to my definition but i can't possibly describe nice to all of you.. so... forget it.
2. Hahahaha! i know many of you may suspect or even think tt i'm a les, but to all my frenz out there, i'm sorry to disappoint but you have one less lesbian fren. i am not any bit crooked and i don't reli intend to be, until a point when the world is full of bastardized jerks tt i may consider this possibility.
3. My ai ai liNeeee, ash, lulu, jean, PPS, liping, and back to leng & cheng again. hahaha!
: 3/18/2006 12:39:00 AM
Saturday, March 04, 2006
[::..just some thoughts ..::]
a bunch of us went over to ash's place after having the famous laksa in yishun central. joycie n shanny accompanied me home to get cookie for some fun in ash's place, hiak hiak. haha twin love my big big mirrror in living room!! sometimes i wouldnt dare to look into the mirror at nite when i walked back to my room from kitchen or the living room, as i usually walk in the dark n wad if some funny "cartoon" pop out? choy!!!! orh mi tor fo. shan zai shan zai. they dun disturb me, i dun disturb them.
we reached ash's place at ard 3. wad the hell.. we took cab down from northpoint, and the uncle was SUPER clueless on how to go to vistapoint. if u reli dunno, den u shld tell us before u started driving off and then called your fren for guidance to our destination, while u drove further n further away from the actual route u shld take. i was like, "HELLO UNCLE, THIS WAY IS TO KHATIB LEH." i dunno does he have hearing problems or did i not mention loud enough, but i told him tt twice alrite. when he reli drove to khatib, nearing lentor avenue, he turned to sembawang rd and started moving towards yishun's direction again before going to admiralty, then to woodlands. thanks huh, but we dun nid a ride ard yishun. wah i was so pissed. if he reli doesn't know he could juz spare us the trouble n we would gladly take another cab. the worse thing was, we mentioned tt we wanna drop off at vistapoint. i watched on as he passed by a building which was very likely to be vistapoint, and then when he passed by woodlands drive 16, he was so stunned n said THERE's NO MORE DRIVE 16 leh. i was like, WAH KAO coz u had driven past it can? i told him it was behind n ask him to make another round, n just as i had expected, we reli dropped off at tt pink building tt we might have alighted minutes ago. wah reli sian more than half when we paid for such a worthless tour. especially on a hot n humid day. SO NOT FUN OK.
a similar case happened to me while i was on my way to sch one fine day when i was about to be late. tt cab uncle, instead of the super shortcut route i always take to the upper seletar reservoir, he toured one big round in yishun lor!!!! i would hv ventured into mandai rd in 5min or lesser, but it took me at least 15-20min before he turned into mandai road. i was like so super diaong can? i told him tt he took the super long route n tt i could hv reached tis road in 5min. n he diam diam. nvm, he charged me the usual fee, so i shall forgive n forget. but another uncle was so unbearable. i left ting's home in a cab one night at 1+am, n instead of following the mrt tracks to yishun, he turned another big round to sembawang road or wad. WAD SHIT? u guys got problem izzit. i was sms-ing so i din realize he took the wrong route until i saw him drove ahead. i exclaimed out loud wasnt he supposed to turn left, and he shoot me, "WHY U NV SAY EARLIER?" den i retorted "u also nv asked n i was on the phone lor, how to see?".
n he still went on n on so i shut him up by repeating what i had said. COME ON MAN. he oso nv asked den he claimed tt i nv say. the route back to my home was like pretty obvious, why muz he make a big round then? for the sake of earning a lil bit more money and then accuse me for not stating my preferred route. wad shit. if i were to state it clearly, i think tt would be an insult to his profession, hence i gave him the benefit of the doubt but he gave me such a shitty attitude. he muz be having PMS.
usually, he would have barked like mad whenever he hear the sounds of keys but he din bark except for ash dad's return. whaha coz i left him on the floor n he was super wary of the "intruder". whahhaa he was so guai outside, didn't bark nor bite any bit, and after getting a scolding from me, he din dare walk into their bathroom. hahaha dogs reli can understand humans man! but why din he stay tt way at home?
he was so quiet in my bag too, whahaha nv utter a sound except sticking his head out for breathers. his head = brooch for my bag. whahaha those who had seen it would know wad i mean!
they played mahjong till 8+pm, and i managed to sleep in an awkward position on the table behind shan with all the din they made while playing. haha super duper tired. nan wei le meng yun, who had to carry cookie in his arms like a nanny. but i bet he enjoyed it! it's kinda dangerous to allow cookie to roam ard ash's home, as there is a high possibility tt it would end up as dog curry. becoz...... ashton is afraid of cookiE!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha
leng, cheng n fren went to rouge and they jio us along, but all of us were tired and some of us were in slacks, so we decided to forego this session. went straight home after pasta-ing.. finally got a chance to eat my pasta!! lol
i found nice earrings while roaming ard!! 25 bucks per pair. omg i think soon i'll be back to claim it. found super nice earrings at future state too! only 13 bucks but pinkish n crystally. whahaha.. cannot tahan glittery stuff. i bought a gold earring too, wah super nice but peiqi claimed tt she look like an ah mah if she were to wear it. lolz. loitered in the perfume section in taka departmental store, and decided on lancome miracle for clara. oh gosh i love tt perfume man! though it's super nice, i prefer my gucci envy me though! hahaha! n they are all in pink bottles. call me girly all you want, HAHA! Pink coRour ROX!
n i saw a super duper super duper nice blue bag at a shop selling abercrombie n fitch stuff in far east! it costs 330 bucks. OMG it is reli super nice with crystals tt i WAHHHHHHH so loudly upon seeing it. wah lao eh reli super nice can. it's reli very nice can? but i juz bought an exp bag for CNY, haiz, muz consider abit b4 buying again. arghhh why cant money juz drop from sky for me~ i muz save for many things. n i am sure tt the bag shldn't be the top priority. i wanna go korea in july. yay!! concrete plans are already kinda set. so happy!!!!!
chatted at coffeebean nx to borders with pq n ting, and we chatted alot of intellectual n religious stuff. most of u probably wouldnt noe, but the 3 of us did make plans to attend some religious meetings months ago, but we nv get to do it. i was suggesting soka to pq but she preferred the chinese method, though ting n i were pretty comfortable wif soka. alright we shall see how it goes. we were talking about the rationale behind buddhists who turned vegetarian. they believe tt every living things, except plants n insects have their own soul and would not want people to slaughter them. if they were, there would be some form of "Yuan1 Qi4" residuing in the carcasses and it would not be gd for one's cultivation if he were to consume food with negative auras.
we started talking about souls, the 4th dimension, parallex dimension, aliens, evolution and the reborn of earth. we used to have a schmate who was in this particular religion or cult tt practises teachings which believe tt the earth will die some day and regenerate living things again, somewhere along tt line. she stubbornly refused to sing the national anthem n pledge, hence was expelled from the sch as they consider it treason or something to not sing the sch song. poor thing. but anyway, wad they believe in is a fact wad, proven by scientists n researchers and all. but i wonder the rationale behind not singing the national anthem.
now, parallex dimension. qi was saying tt wadever we do in our own universe, there would be another dimension which mirrors our actions n doings. which means if i were to sit down n chat happily with my frenz now, i would be slapping n fighting with them in the other dimension. cool man. the theory was discovered but wasn't proven. next, we mentioned about ghosts. they may have a world of their own in the n-th dimension after their death. they could have another coffeebean at the exact spot where we were sitting in our dimension, only with different "customers" in theirs. maybe they were sucked back into our dimension due to the magnetic force so they stayed behind? haha.. maybe.
evolution.. AHHH talking abt evolution.. it brings me memory of my JC period while mugging so hard for biology. the DARWIN'S theory of evolution! the scientific darwin's theory kinda contradict many religious beliefs, as religions believe tt the land and living things were created by God, whoever or whichever their beliefs lie in. however, according to the darwin's theory, the living things change and evolve to suit the changing environment due to the hostile environmental factors in their own niche.
some water creatures have evolved to have amazing legs n to be able to endure a short while on land before going back to their habitat, and on the other hand, some land animals have become accustomed to going into the waters tt they slowly evolve to have gills to allow them to breathe underwater for a short period. cockroaches used to die after being sprayed by a mild pesticide then, but now they've evolved to become immuned to those pesticides. though many of their kinds hv perished with our sprayings, but our sprayings have actually aided them to breed a new kind of cockroaches who are stronger and more resistant to our pesticides, tt humans have problems trying to concoct a strong-enough-but-not-too-irritating-for-humans pesticide tt is ideal for the batch of Cockroaches. it is juz like dawn of the dead, whereby a new breed of a race is born. this is known as survival of the fittest, isn't it? the cycle continues and the cockroaches get stronger, but i do hope they wun infest our earth.. coz i hate cockroaches.
yes, it could be god who created the earth: the land, the ground, the rivers, the mountains, the people, the animals, the insects. but it is up to the living things to evolve to wad we have today. god could have created us in the form of a chimpanzee, and we have become wad we see ourselves as today. amazing.
qi's professor was saying, we could be pawns in aliens' hand. who knows, just like matrix, the aliens could have injected our brains with our unique datas n backgrounds in their database, and we see wad they wan us to see in our universe. maybe they could be monitoring us while we do things tt we would, given our unique personalities and tt could very much be their survey topics and we could very much become guinea pigs for their tests!! omg!!!
humans always believe tt we are the most superior living thing in the universe, but is tt reli so? we evolved to fit into the environment tt is suitable for living things on Earth; the importance of air, humidity, water, the kinds of food, etc. but there could also be a possibility tt there are other creatures who may have evolved to become accustomed to their own environmental factors; probably 900 Farenheit on Venus would be ideal for venus-ians who are wrapped with skins with holes around them for "tong1 fong1" purposes and they could probably withstand atmospheric pressure tt is 90 times tt of the Earth's surface weighing on their skins? tt could very much be a massage for them man. maybe Martians love to breathe in carbon dioxide that constitutes almost all of the air available on the planet and enjoy basking in temperatures as low as 220 Farenheit below Zero with their furry furry skins tt are thicker than godzilla's?
humans may be superior on Earth, but wad if an even more powerful forces dictate in the rest of the planets as well. oooh interesting. humans are still planning to create homes of our living conditions in other planets decades or most probably centuries later, and i wonder whether we would be welcomed by their natives ahahaha. plz dun let the scenes of Starship Troopers re-enact man. wonder will i be reborn by tt time to experience the self-destruction of the planet or the migration of humans to probably, saturn? haha
we were on our way home and met a Miss P. wah lao eh the way she talk reli was super tactless can? i felt reli insulted n stunned, and pq said tt i am ruo xiao nu zi n tt she muz protect me. haha actually, i think tt is the way Miss P usually talk. but on the other hand, i felt reli offended. things hasn't changed any bit since sec sch days. arghz quite pek chek juz now! i felt so helpless to the extent tt i turned to ting n qi for help, to save me outta the blackhole, coz i wouldn't wanna sound nasty. was kinda biting my tongue in case i lash out unknowingly. respect respect. i din get any tt i deserved. i reli felt like a hypocrite trying to keep a smiley false front, yet i am cringing on my insides. but i had no choice but to do so. ARGHZ ER XIN CAN!
omg, i'm so talk cock today. gd morning and it's 8.30am already. the Ultimate has overpowered me and i can't slp!! shldnt hv drank coffee. haha.