[::..crybaby ..::]
[::..crybaby ..::]
by looking at the title, i guess most of you know what i'm gonna biatch about next.
i feel so so damn cheated!!! :(
i've been crying so much for the past few days that i won't ever doubt again if someone ever says "women are made of water". tears automatically sprang to my eyes whenever one mentions or asks me about my previous/current job. i couldn't help but feel so cheated about it. so GEK about it. so sad about it. it's harder to hold on to my tears than actually working in my current job. sorry guys i may have scared you all, ahaha but i din mean to spoil the mood. i seriously couldn't help it! i think the male colleague sitting nx to me could have been freaked out by me throughout the whole 2 hours after lunchtime, as i've been crying non-stop and he saw and heard it, and turned occassionally to check on whether i'm still crying. haha oops.
i wonder what's holding me on to my previous workplace. okok. to say it materialistically, everything's great! the flat-screen monitors, bloomberg/reuters stations, 2 big big flat-screen tv for news, my huge table that was possibly 1.5 to 2 times the size of my current hideout, the nice toilet where we can view the top of town (the toilet i hv now is super stuffy n very hawker-centrish), a orangey brightly-lit pantry with nice sofas and unlimted supply of any drinks u can think of. not all, maybe most. Milo, Lipton/Peppermint Lipton/Chinese/Green tea, Nescafe Mix/Powder, Black coffee, Perrier water, Coke/Coke Light/Sprite, Orange/Cranberry Juice, Red wine........ and the beauty of it? All FOC! the staff benefits were real good. just imagine, a coffee machine for 7 over grand dollars, catering super nice coffee such as cappuccino and latte and some other things tt i dun reli know how to spell.
But u guys can't convict me of materialism alright. although there is a strong pull attraction due to the luxurious factor, the main concern for me would be how i feel about the work environment, as in if i hate my work (like wad i used to feel towards sch in poly yr 1 n 2), i will dread it and will not enjoy going to work at all. i will find all kinds of excuses to be late or not attending work, or best still, CHANGE job.
i love the people there. it's not about a "fetish for foreigners", although i love speaking with them as it reli helped in deproving my singlish. some of the people are like family to me, i don't mind showing them silly and stupid things that i usually do, like teh-ing or moaning (dun think crooked, i only do tt to gers but i'm not a les). i can safely say 80% or more of the pple made me feel real comfy with them around me. via conversations and some talking-cock sessions, they made me feel like i reli belong there, striving hard in work like every one of them.
i love the job and i was learning on it, and i simply love going to work. It's just the kinda feeling whereby i don't reli know how to describe. like.. i wouldn't mind working on wkends, even on sundays for this job. been alone in the office on a sunday and was slowly devouring every sight of the office from my seat. even took pics of them (coz that was my last week of work). i wouldnt mind coming in early and leaving later than the perm staff. i wouldnt mind having to lunch-in to do work. i wouldnt mind not getting a bonus at the end of the year but still continue with my job. i wouldn't mind if i have to do lotsa staring in to the screen full of numbers and figures. i wouldn't mind having to quit my current job now just to get back my previous one, but it's all too late.
Company A said that i can have a chance to become a TD, but it was way outta some of our expectations. Company A had the cheek to remind me to learn managing my expectations. HELLO?? it was stated clearly that we were going to be a TD, but it turned out otherwise. and no, u din tell us beforehand that we may not get what we expected. You shld be the one learning how to keep your word. Anyway, i have to be in Company B for 1 mth. long and draggy huh? worst part was, i actually gave up my job for this chance which i thought i could learn more and may have prospects in the long-run for me due to the many benefits Company A has promised, but failed to deliver.
how nice, how great. i don't feel like celebrating my 21st bday anymore. i thought i would be happy this year. i don't think so now. i feel very miserable. i wanna return to my job..... terribly.
i feel so so damn cheated!!! :(
i've been crying so much for the past few days that i won't ever doubt again if someone ever says "women are made of water". tears automatically sprang to my eyes whenever one mentions or asks me about my previous/current job. i couldn't help but feel so cheated about it. so GEK about it. so sad about it. it's harder to hold on to my tears than actually working in my current job. sorry guys i may have scared you all, ahaha but i din mean to spoil the mood. i seriously couldn't help it! i think the male colleague sitting nx to me could have been freaked out by me throughout the whole 2 hours after lunchtime, as i've been crying non-stop and he saw and heard it, and turned occassionally to check on whether i'm still crying. haha oops.
i wonder what's holding me on to my previous workplace. okok. to say it materialistically, everything's great! the flat-screen monitors, bloomberg/reuters stations, 2 big big flat-screen tv for news, my huge table that was possibly 1.5 to 2 times the size of my current hideout, the nice toilet where we can view the top of town (the toilet i hv now is super stuffy n very hawker-centrish), a orangey brightly-lit pantry with nice sofas and unlimted supply of any drinks u can think of. not all, maybe most. Milo, Lipton/Peppermint Lipton/Chinese/Green tea, Nescafe Mix/Powder, Black coffee, Perrier water, Coke/Coke Light/Sprite, Orange/Cranberry Juice, Red wine........ and the beauty of it? All FOC! the staff benefits were real good. just imagine, a coffee machine for 7 over grand dollars, catering super nice coffee such as cappuccino and latte and some other things tt i dun reli know how to spell.
But u guys can't convict me of materialism alright. although there is a strong pull attraction due to the luxurious factor, the main concern for me would be how i feel about the work environment, as in if i hate my work (like wad i used to feel towards sch in poly yr 1 n 2), i will dread it and will not enjoy going to work at all. i will find all kinds of excuses to be late or not attending work, or best still, CHANGE job.
i love the people there. it's not about a "fetish for foreigners", although i love speaking with them as it reli helped in deproving my singlish. some of the people are like family to me, i don't mind showing them silly and stupid things that i usually do, like teh-ing or moaning (dun think crooked, i only do tt to gers but i'm not a les). i can safely say 80% or more of the pple made me feel real comfy with them around me. via conversations and some talking-cock sessions, they made me feel like i reli belong there, striving hard in work like every one of them.
i love the job and i was learning on it, and i simply love going to work. It's just the kinda feeling whereby i don't reli know how to describe. like.. i wouldn't mind working on wkends, even on sundays for this job. been alone in the office on a sunday and was slowly devouring every sight of the office from my seat. even took pics of them (coz that was my last week of work). i wouldnt mind coming in early and leaving later than the perm staff. i wouldnt mind having to lunch-in to do work. i wouldnt mind not getting a bonus at the end of the year but still continue with my job. i wouldn't mind if i have to do lotsa staring in to the screen full of numbers and figures. i wouldn't mind having to quit my current job now just to get back my previous one, but it's all too late.
Company A said that i can have a chance to become a TD, but it was way outta some of our expectations. Company A had the cheek to remind me to learn managing my expectations. HELLO?? it was stated clearly that we were going to be a TD, but it turned out otherwise. and no, u din tell us beforehand that we may not get what we expected. You shld be the one learning how to keep your word. Anyway, i have to be in Company B for 1 mth. long and draggy huh? worst part was, i actually gave up my job for this chance which i thought i could learn more and may have prospects in the long-run for me due to the many benefits Company A has promised, but failed to deliver.
how nice, how great. i don't feel like celebrating my 21st bday anymore. i thought i would be happy this year. i don't think so now. i feel very miserable. i wanna return to my job..... terribly.
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