went for a discussion meeting in clementi with my bro. leng, timmy and cannie were there as well. leng gave me a gongyo book and really nice beads. haha pardon me for sounding as if it were an accessory, but i will treasure it leng! as wad i've said, i'll bring it out the nx time and use it in front of u. hahaha. ah cheng said that leng has a motive for doing so and welcome me to their world. ahahaha i think u gotta wait for some time dude.
din dare to tell my parents where we were and wad were we doing. they're die-hard taoists but never once did they ever force us to learn their way of praying and religious ceremonies. the most they'll expect us to continue the line and not disappoint them in their beliefs. i'll see how things go..
things din go too well at work. quite upset actually. but still i managed to pull through - for the moment. been looking burnt out at work recently, tt shuyi has been asking whether is there something wrong with me. sometimes work is simply tiring. it's half-work-half-entertaining that kinda affair. i always tot that i can be on good terms with colleagues from my department as it's a all-female envt and i am more at ease with female colleagues all round the office. but sometimes my blurness may nearly cost me the harmonious relationship with one. she may not mean it la, as one has explained to me that her pattern is as such and asked me not to take it to heart. i've resisted such thoughts for a few weeks, until i reli feel tired of being treated like this. now i've quietened down at work. i seriously dun feel like talking or entertaining anymore.
ahhh rather confused lately. a colleague has been asking if im interested in sales & mkting, but tt would mean sidetracking from wad i've learnt at sch and from wad i am interested in. but then again, i'm seriously having 2nd thoughts in continuing with my line coz i reli dunno wad shld i do.
told meizhen about my regret in poly. about something i've done that i suddenly realised tt it was terribly wrong. i thought i would nv regret it in the past. i tot that i did the right thing. but i guess wadever i've said then was an excuse to make up for my inferiority, to escape from all the discomfort and hardship. i feel like smacking myself for that, but that would do me no good since i can't turn back time.
din dare to tell my parents where we were and wad were we doing. they're die-hard taoists but never once did they ever force us to learn their way of praying and religious ceremonies. the most they'll expect us to continue the line and not disappoint them in their beliefs. i'll see how things go..
things din go too well at work. quite upset actually. but still i managed to pull through - for the moment. been looking burnt out at work recently, tt shuyi has been asking whether is there something wrong with me. sometimes work is simply tiring. it's half-work-half-entertaining that kinda affair. i always tot that i can be on good terms with colleagues from my department as it's a all-female envt and i am more at ease with female colleagues all round the office. but sometimes my blurness may nearly cost me the harmonious relationship with one. she may not mean it la, as one has explained to me that her pattern is as such and asked me not to take it to heart. i've resisted such thoughts for a few weeks, until i reli feel tired of being treated like this. now i've quietened down at work. i seriously dun feel like talking or entertaining anymore.
ahhh rather confused lately. a colleague has been asking if im interested in sales & mkting, but tt would mean sidetracking from wad i've learnt at sch and from wad i am interested in. but then again, i'm seriously having 2nd thoughts in continuing with my line coz i reli dunno wad shld i do.
told meizhen about my regret in poly. about something i've done that i suddenly realised tt it was terribly wrong. i thought i would nv regret it in the past. i tot that i did the right thing. but i guess wadever i've said then was an excuse to make up for my inferiority, to escape from all the discomfort and hardship. i feel like smacking myself for that, but that would do me no good since i can't turn back time.
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