[::..My dear beloved 吴尊! ..::]
ok from now on i'm gonna just talk about happy things! things that i like! things tt i fancy! no more complaints!
oh yea.. i met up with my colleagues over the CNY holiday. yao yao, hammy, prissy and kaney turned up! and we had a good laugh over dinner and it was dessert after that. i was really happy to be reunited with the gang. they were the reli trustable pple i have met so far in my company and although all of us are different and we came from different family backgrounds,such matters are so insignificant compared to the joy that we bring to one another whenever we meet up for dinner or clubbing. hehe i reli love them! yao yao's gonna be back from HK soon! yay and we can meet up as usual for all kinda sports n events that we plan!
oh and my dad hired the lion dance troupe to my place, only to be late for 3hours and not showing any sign of sorriness for holding up our precious time on the 2nd day of CNY! i woke up soooo early at 8am to await their arrival and they had the cheek to create unnecessary noise outside my home when they arrive to rush my dad through the procedures. stupid bengs, don't they have any brains at all!? anyway, i met up with my bestest relatives during the festive season as well. we played blackjack and mahjong. my luck wasn't that good, i lost quite alot. but that's ok if it can entertain my favourite nephews n niece. my cousins were suanning me as usual, they never fail to do so every CNY, and i am so used to it. my dad did not force me to visit those snobbish ones, which means i need not put up a false front and be as hypocritical as some of them. *phewww*
Saturday, February 24, 2007
not that i want to, i just can't help it.
i shld just bottle up all my feelings and hope that things will be fine.
i really hope so..
Monday, February 05, 2007
the feeling's like, i'm being used. i don't mind a low-paying job, neither do i mind long working hours as i was happy working and learning from others who are far more experienced than i am. but i reli feel so USED that i am being rotated around to replace pple on maternity.. not being able to specialise in something i could have liked or exposed to. reli hate being USED. hate it.
i mean.. wad's the point of holding on when i wasn't given any chance to even be a staff, no opportunity to specialise in something... it sucks la.. some who joined later than me were converted to perm already, and i am left hanging in mid-air still. i feel happy for them as they are all my frenz.. but at the same time, feel so sian for myself.
my prev manager has mentioned to me that they may have new headcounts, and the head of compliance actually asked me when does my contract ends. he'll probably need a new staff too. others could have been talking behind my back, saying that I shld look for a perm job instead of holding on the the company for its reputation. c'mon la, i just wanna clock a 1year experience with the company and leave once i learnt as much as i can. i'm not that desperate to stay on alrite? my only aim is to learn.
it's alrite.. i am still young.. but i just dun feel good about this.. reli felt like crying! i don't like it when pple don't understand me, but i can't be bothered to rectify wadever they have misunderstood.
all the hard work that i have put in is simply not enough to justify for any placement in the office. it's all about luck, and it's just too bad that i don't have it.