i'm so, so determined to quit la.
the feeling's like, i'm being used. i don't mind a low-paying job, neither do i mind long working hours as i was happy working and learning from others who are far more experienced than i am. but i reli feel so USED that i am being rotated around to replace pple on maternity.. not being able to specialise in something i could have liked or exposed to. reli hate being USED. hate it.
i mean.. wad's the point of holding on when i wasn't given any chance to even be a staff, no opportunity to specialise in something... it sucks la.. some who joined later than me were converted to perm already, and i am left hanging in mid-air still. i feel happy for them as they are all my frenz.. but at the same time, feel so sian for myself.
my prev manager has mentioned to me that they may have new headcounts, and the head of compliance actually asked me when does my contract ends. he'll probably need a new staff too. others could have been talking behind my back, saying that I shld look for a perm job instead of holding on the the company for its reputation. c'mon la, i just wanna clock a 1year experience with the company and leave once i learnt as much as i can. i'm not that desperate to stay on alrite? my only aim is to learn.
it's alrite.. i am still young.. but i just dun feel good about this.. reli felt like crying! i don't like it when pple don't understand me, but i can't be bothered to rectify wadever they have misunderstood.
all the hard work that i have put in is simply not enough to justify for any placement in the office. it's all about luck, and it's just too bad that i don't have it.
the feeling's like, i'm being used. i don't mind a low-paying job, neither do i mind long working hours as i was happy working and learning from others who are far more experienced than i am. but i reli feel so USED that i am being rotated around to replace pple on maternity.. not being able to specialise in something i could have liked or exposed to. reli hate being USED. hate it.
i mean.. wad's the point of holding on when i wasn't given any chance to even be a staff, no opportunity to specialise in something... it sucks la.. some who joined later than me were converted to perm already, and i am left hanging in mid-air still. i feel happy for them as they are all my frenz.. but at the same time, feel so sian for myself.
my prev manager has mentioned to me that they may have new headcounts, and the head of compliance actually asked me when does my contract ends. he'll probably need a new staff too. others could have been talking behind my back, saying that I shld look for a perm job instead of holding on the the company for its reputation. c'mon la, i just wanna clock a 1year experience with the company and leave once i learnt as much as i can. i'm not that desperate to stay on alrite? my only aim is to learn.
it's alrite.. i am still young.. but i just dun feel good about this.. reli felt like crying! i don't like it when pple don't understand me, but i can't be bothered to rectify wadever they have misunderstood.
all the hard work that i have put in is simply not enough to justify for any placement in the office. it's all about luck, and it's just too bad that i don't have it.
<__i'm // who i am* . > - 12:51 AM