[::..once bitten, twice shy ..::]
[::..once bitten, twice shy ..::]
here i am.. once again.. gonna start my nonsense again!
i am just not able to believe, or maybe i don't wanna believe in anything else, or anything more than what i have now. perhaps i feel safer in my own comfort zone that i wouldn't wanna incorporate any major changes into my life. i've gradually grown to accept facts and reality that i had become rather retarded to any changes. i realized that it has came to a point that i don't even know what i am doing, or what do i exactly want. i desperately needed a direction, some help as to what i'm going through now. but then again, i don't feel like talking about it to anyone. maybe the problems will just disappear as time goes by, and things will turn out as before. ha! what has happened to the tough old me? the one who knows what she wants in her life, what she aims to achieve in life. i have been evading from all my problems nowadays. i don't feel like facing anything when my life is full of uncertainties. i feel like such a loser all of a sudden. and as the saying goes.. once bitten, twice shy. i wouldn't wanna encounter any more of those unhappy incidents that happened to me in the past. there were times when i felt so so upset yet there was nothing i could do, and i could only resort to crying. ahhhh.. forget it. i'm crapping.
i am just not able to believe, or maybe i don't wanna believe in anything else, or anything more than what i have now. perhaps i feel safer in my own comfort zone that i wouldn't wanna incorporate any major changes into my life. i've gradually grown to accept facts and reality that i had become rather retarded to any changes. i realized that it has came to a point that i don't even know what i am doing, or what do i exactly want. i desperately needed a direction, some help as to what i'm going through now. but then again, i don't feel like talking about it to anyone. maybe the problems will just disappear as time goes by, and things will turn out as before. ha! what has happened to the tough old me? the one who knows what she wants in her life, what she aims to achieve in life. i have been evading from all my problems nowadays. i don't feel like facing anything when my life is full of uncertainties. i feel like such a loser all of a sudden. and as the saying goes.. once bitten, twice shy. i wouldn't wanna encounter any more of those unhappy incidents that happened to me in the past. there were times when i felt so so upset yet there was nothing i could do, and i could only resort to crying. ahhhh.. forget it. i'm crapping.
<__i'm // who i am* . > - 2:09 AM